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Living Whole and Alive - A Transmission for you who have been disconnected from yourself by your unspoken truth

A spoken transmission from the series At The Threshold by Astuti Martosudirdjo.

This transmission is for you who know what you haven't said yet and who feel the cost of that silence in your body, your relationships, and your life.

It is for you who have kept the peace at the expense of your truth.

For the leader who has diluted their vision for the room.

For the person who has watched their boundary get stepped over, again.

For anyone who has drifted from themselves, they can now feel the unavoidable distance.

This is not a space to force yourself to speak.

It is a space to be eased back to your truth: to reprogram your subconscious and unconscious mind, dissolve the beliefs that have kept your truth locked inside, and let your soul root in your body, where it belongs.

Let this transmission meet you exactly where you are.

Come back to it whenever the distance between who you are and how you're living becomes impossible to ignore.

Wholeness and aliveness are not a destination.

They are your home frequency and you are always welcome here.

Frequencies: 528 Hz (dissolving and integration)

⚠️ Please don't listen to this transmission while driving, operating machinery, or multitasking. It's meant to be received in stillness, in a private, quiet space where you won't be interrupted.

You are welcome to listen to this as often as you feel called to until the rooting feels complete.

Return to Devotion: From Striving to Wholeness

A Living Audio Transmission for Reclaiming Your Rhythm, Worth, and Inner Abundance

A spoken transmission from the series At The Threshold by Astuti Martosudirdjo.

This transmission is for you who have given everything - your time, your steadiness, your care - and who have begun to sense that striving is not anymore the path you’re willing to be in.

It's for you who have built a life of contribution and commitment, and who now feel the pull toward something more sustainable.

Not less devoted but more honestly devoted to yourself, and to what truly matters.

This is not a space to push harder or optimise further.

It is a space to soften the striving that has been running beneath your success; to let go of the belief that exhaustion is the price of worth and to return to the kind of inner abundance that no achievement can give, and no setback can take.

Let this transmission meet you exactly where you are.

Come back to it whenever you need to remember: Wholeness was never at the end of the effort. It was always waiting here.

Frequency: 396 Hz

⚠️ Please don't listen to this transmission while driving, operating machinery, or multitasking.

It's meant to be received in stillness in a private, quiet space where you won't be interrupted.

You are welcome to listen to this as often as you feel called to until the reprogramming feels complete.

Full written transmission Return to Devotion

Held in Grief - A compassionate presence to accompany you moving through the pain

A spoken transmission from the series At The Threshold by Astuti Martosudirdjo.

This transmission is for you who are carrying a loss.

For you who have lost someone you love.

For you who are grieving a relationship, a version of yourself, or a life that no longer fits. For you who feel grief deeply and in more pain for feeling so alone being with it.

This transmission is not a space to fix your grief or move past it faster.

It is a space to hold you inside it, without pressure, without judgment, without a timeline.

Grief lives in your nervous system.

It tightens the chest, shortens the breath, and keeps your body quietly braced and tensed.

This transmission works directly with that - signaling safety, softening what your body has been holding, and allowing your breath to return to its natural rhythm.

Let this transmission meet you exactly where you are.

Come back to it whenever you need to remember: In your grief, you are not broken; you are not late; you are not alone.

Frequency: 396 Hz - known to support the release of suppressed grief, shame, and guilt.

⚠️ Please don't listen to this transmission while driving, operating machinery, or multitasking.

It's meant to be received in stillness, in a private, quiet space where you won't be interrupted.

Beyond Black and White - A Nervous-System-Safe Transmission for the Uncomfortable Grey Zone

A spoken transmission from the series At The Threshold by Astuti Martosudirdjo.

This transmission is for you who feel stuck in the grey zone where nothing is clearly right or wrong, yes or no, now or never.

It's for you who are carrying the weight of unresolved choices, the pressure to decide before you are ready, or the exhaustion of pushing for clarity that has not yet come.

This is not a space to figure things out.

It's a space to exhale, to soften your nervous system, and to return to yourself and trust life, even in the fog.

Let this transmission meet you exactly where you are.

Come back to it whenever life feels unclear or in between: Even in the grey zone, you are exactly where you are meant to be.

You are always welcome here.

Frequency: 528 Hz

⚠️ Please don't listen to this transmission while driving, operating machinery, or multitasking.

It's meant to be received in stillness, in a private, quiet space where you won't be interrupted.

This is a free offering, with an open invitation to offer a gift in return if your heart feels called.

A spoken transmission from the series At The Threshold by Astuti Martosudirdjo.

Being a trailblazer is not a role you applied for.

It is a soul frequency - what you are at your core, not what you chose to become.

If you have naturally spent your life creating the path by creating and walking it - ahead of others, misunderstood, feeling like you don't belong, and often alone, living a life that others wish for but are also scared of - this transmission is for you.

It works directly with your nervous system, releasing the vigilance that builds when you have spent years moving first.

You will receive:

• Somatic grounding for the weight of walking ahead and often alone

• Relief from the pressure of needing to justify your path

• A steady sense of belonging to yourself and your direction

• The reminder that creating the path was your natural way of being

Best received in stillness with your body supported and minimal stimulation. Headphones recommended.

Return as often as you need. Each listening meets you where you are.

You don't need to figure anything out. Just arrive here and receive.

Let this transmission meet you in your body, not just your mind.

Return to it whenever you feel anxious, exhausted and defeated.

Frequency: 528Hz

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There Is No Wrong Turn: Self-Forgiveness and Trust

A spoken transmission from the series At The Threshold by Astuti Martosudirdjo.

A 17-minute healing transmission for guilt, regret, and spiritual self-judgment.

This is for the part of you that fears you’ve wasted time, made too many mistakes, or missed your chance and is ready to return to peace.

If you’ve asked, “Why did it take me so long?” or “What if I had known sooner?”… this is for you.

You haven’t fallen behind. Your soul has always known.

This transmission helps soften judgment, dissolve guilt, and forgive the version of you who didn’t yet know. No fixing, no figuring out, just receive.

What you’ll experience:

• Relief from regret and self-blame

• Forgiveness for how long it took

• Reconnection to your soul’s timing

• A return to trust

Frequency: 396 Hz

Best received in stillness with headphones.

Presence Is Sovereignty

Return to the Signal of Your Truth in a World of Noise

A spoken transmission from the series At The Threshold by Astuti Martosudirdjo.

This transmission is for you who feel scattered by noise, disconnected from your own signal, or pressured to “be present” in ways that feel performative instead of real.

It’s for you who have lost presence not because you don’t care, but because you have been surviving, striving, or silencing your truth for too long.

This is not a space to perfect stillness.

It’s a space to dissolve distortion, to meet yourself with truth, and to re-tune your field to what has always been yours: clarity, safety, and knowing that arise not from effort but from being here.

Inside this transmission, you will remember:

• Presence is not a practice. It’s a return.

• Presence is not for healing only. It’s for leading, loving, and living.

• Presence is not fragile. It is your embodied sovereignty.

It also clears the part of you that learned to fear stillness; the one who performs to feel safe, or outruns silence to feel alive.

That part is gently named, witnessed, and dissolved.

Let this field re-tune you.

Come back to it as often as you need especially when you’re ready to stop performing and start remembering.

Frequency: 432 Hz (for deep relaxation, anxiety relief and stress reduction) + 528 Hz (for clarity and vibrational repair)

⚠️ Please do not listen while driving, operating machinery, or multitasking.

This transmission is meant to be received in stillness.

The Soft Return: When Peace Becomes the Signal of Real Love and Truth

A spoken transmission from the At The Threshold series by Astuti Martosudirdjo.

If you’ve ever doubted a relationship because it didn’t come with butterflies…

If you’ve ever confused chaos with chemistry or believed that love must come with a racing heart, a knot in your belly, or a spiral in your mind, this transmission is for you.

This is not just a reframe.

It’s a recalibration.

A living field to help your nervous system release the old signals of survival…and remember that peace, calm, and clarity can be the signals of real love and truth.

This is for you if:

• You’ve only known love as intensity

• You’re healing from confusion between longing and resonance

• You’re learning to trust connection that feels still, grounded, and safe

• You’ve mistaken adrenaline for alignment and you’re ready to come home to your body

Let this field unwind the need for chaos…and help you land in a love that doesn’t require pain to prove it’s real.

Frequency: 432 Hz

⚠️ Please don’t listen while driving or multitasking.

This transmission is meant to be received in stillness in a quiet, uninterrupted space.

It Is Safe to Thrive Now

A spoken transmission from the series "At The Threshold" by Astuti Martosudirdjo.

This transmission is for you who have lived in survival mode for far too long and who feel the inner knowing that it’s time for something more.

It’s for the part of you that has carried everything…who has stayed strong, alert and self-sacrificing in a world that didn’t always feel safe for you to soften.

This is not a space of pressure or push.

It’s a space to unwind survival programming from the roots, to dissolve old vows, release inherited burdens, and recalibrate your field to the natural, embodied frequency of thriving.

Let this transmission meet you where you are.

Return to it when you feel overwhelmed, afraid to slow down, or unsure if it’s truly safe to receive.

This is not about pretending everything is perfect.

It’s about remembering that you don’t have to earn your right to feel well, whole and held.

You are meant to thrive and the shift begins with a single breath of honesty.

Frequency: 528 Hz

⚠️ Please do not listen to this transmission while driving, operating machinery, or multitasking.

It’s meant to be received in stillness: in a private, quiet space where you won’t be interrupted.

The Completion: Reclaiming Yourself After an Ending

A Living Audio Transmission to Complete What Has Ended and Reclaim Your Energy

by Astuti Martosudirdjo

This spoken transmission is for you who are standing at the edge of an ending; the you who sense something is over, even if your mind did not see it clearly.

It’s for you who are ready to honour what has passed, ended and completed without dragging it into the next chapter.

This includes you who are founders, creators, and entrepreneurs who have poured your life force into something you now feel ready to complete because you have outgrown its shape.

Inside this experience, you’ll be guided through a powerful energetic act of completion, not just to walk away from what no longer resonates but to reclaim the presence, power, and life force that still belong to you.

This is not a push to let go.

It is a space to complete with truth, clarity, and wholeness.

Let this transmission support you in bringing the exchange to rest, closing the energetic loops and returning to the self that never replaceable.

Frequency: 528 Hz (for wholeness, return, and vibrational repair)

⚠️ Please don’t listen while driving or multitasking.

This transmission is meant to be received in stillness in a quiet space where you can be fully present.

💗 If this transmission supports you and your heart feels called,

you are welcome to offer a gift in return:

Grieving the Life You Had to Outgrow - An audio transmission to accompany you grieving the life you have outgrown.

A spoken transmission from the series "At The Threshold" by Astuti Martosudirdjo

This transmission is for you who’ve chosen for a life that feels more true to you and are now grieving the one you have outgrown.

It’s for the moments after the decision is made… when life continues around you, but something deep within you has already changed.

The sadness that rises when you no longer abandon yourself and suddenly feel the weight of what you once carried without question.

This is not a space to fix or rush your grief.

It’s a space to feel and to be held as you meet your grief; to let your grief move through without judgment.

For you to be accompanied, gently, and lovingly.

Let this transmission hold you in the quiet spaces where your old life is dissolving, and your new one is still forming.

Return to it anytime you need.

Especially when your grief feels invisible, and you just want someone to sit with you in it.

Frequency: 396 Hz (A frequency that gently supports energetic release and emotional clearing).

⚠️ Please don’t listen to this transmission while driving, operating machinery or multitasking.

It’s meant to be received in stillness, in a private, quiet space where you won’t be interrupted.

An Audio Grounding Transmission for Walking Through the Transition You Chose

A spoken transmission from the series At The Threshold by Astuti Martosudirdjo.

This is for you who have already said yes to your truth and are now experiencing your current life begin to shift, dissolve, or come undone.

It’s for the moments after a life changing decision has been made…
when jobs, identities, or familiar patterns begin to fall away, not because you made a mistake, but because the life built around your old self can no longer hold your truth now.

This is not a transmission to fix or rescue you.

It’s an energetic field to support you to breathe, regulate your nervous system and walk through the transition you chose fully, gently, and without abandoning yourself in the process.

Let this transmission hold you in motion and stillness.

Come back to it whenever you need to feel grounded, steady and safe as you continue to walk forward in your transition.

Frequency: 396 Hz
A grounding tone to support emotional safety and nervous system recalibration.

⚠️ Please do not listen to this transmission while driving, operating machinery, or multitasking.
It is meant to be received in stillness, in a quiet, private space where you won’t be interrupted.

This is a free offering, with an open invitation to offer a gift in return if your heart feels called.
💗 You are welcome to do so here:

Walking Your Soul-Led Path With Ease

A living transmission to trust your Inner guidance to create and live your aligned life

A spoken transmission from the series At The Threshold by Astuti Martosudirdjo.

This transmission is for you who are done performing.

For you who no longer want to live a life that costs you your peace, your joy, or your truth.

It's for you who have made a soul vow to stop delaying what feels true even if you don't yet know how to create and live it.

Your Soul already has the plan.

It is guiding you the moment you choose to listen.

You don't need certainty to begin.

You are ready now.

Frequency: 432 Hz (for nervous system grounding, rhythm restoration, and embodied trust)

⚠️ Please don’t listen while driving, operating machinery, ormultitasking. This transmission is meant to be received in stillness: in a private, quiet space where you can be fully present.

A spoken transmission from the series At The Threshold by Astuti Martosudirdjo.

This transmission is for you who feel tired not just from life but from the very healing you hoped would bring peace.

It’s for you who entered the healing space with the same energy that once burned you out: goals, urgency, pressure, striving.
It’s for the version of you who wants to do it right, but is now ready to do it differently.

This is not a space of fixing.
It is a space of remembering:
→ that healing has its natural pace
→ that rest is not weakness
→ and that you are already whole even as you heal.

Let this transmission guide you back to your breath, to integration and to truth that settles in your bones.

Come back to it whenever you need to remember:
You don’t have to earn rest.
You are the resting place.

Frequency: 396 Hz

⚠️ Please don’t listen to this transmission while driving, operating machinery, or multitasking.
It’s meant to be received in stillness in a private, quiet space where you won’t be interrupted.

A spoken transmission from the series At The Threshold by Astuti Martosudirdjo.

This transmission is for you who long to live free and who sense the real cost of that freedom.
It’s for you who have carried vows, roles, and unspoken contracts for years… and who now feel the pull to dissolve them, even when they’ve shaped how you see yourself.

This is not a space to push or force yourself to “just let go”.
It’s a space to dissolve what is no longer yours - to release the fear, guilt, or shame you may hold for others when you choose your freedom and to reprogram your being so that living free becomes your natural state.

Let this transmission meet you exactly where you are.
Come back to it whenever you need to remember:
Freedom is not a single moment.
It’s a living choice and you are always welcome here.

Frequency: 396 Hz

⚠️ Please don’t listen to this transmission while driving, operating machinery, or multitasking.
It’s meant to be received in stillness - in a private, quiet space where you won’t be interrupted.

Let Love Stay: An Audio Transmission for the ones who carried too much in a relationship and the ones who could not stay present enough in It

A spoken transmission from At The Threshold by Astuti Martosudirdjo.

This is a healing field for:

• Those who became the emotional anchor of the relationship

• Those who carried the weight of connection alone, quietly, consistently, even now

• Those who loved deeply but couldn’t stay present because presence felt too raw, too risky, or too unfamiliar

Whether you're currently inside a relationship or reflecting on one from your past, this transmission is here to meet you.

This is not a space of fixing or explaining.
It is a frequency field to unhook the fear of being overridden when you open and to dissolve the inherited belief that tenderness always leads to loss.

It speaks to the nervous system first, not the mind.

To the over-giver who tried to hold it all.
To the one who withdrew because it felt too much.
To the part of you that still wonders if love and freedom can live together.

Let this transmission gently unwind the patterns of over holding, vanishing, and bracing.
Let it restore the rhythm of presence where love does not require disappearance and connection can feel steady, mutual, and safe.

Frequencies used:
396 Hz for releasing guilt and fear

⚠️ Please do not listen while driving or multitasking.
Receive this in stillness with your body supported and your heart open.

A spoken transmission from the series At The Threshold by Astuti Martosudirdjo.

This transmission is for you who are standing at the edge of change - pulled toward your authentic path, yet afraid of what you might lose. 

It’s for anyone holding on to people, roles, or structures even when they know it is time to allow change because they’ve been the scaffolding of their life even when they don't feel true anymore.

This is not a space that tells you to “just let go”.

It’s a space to name the survival programs that make endings feel dangerous, and to return you to the truths that cannot be taken from you.

Here, you’ll remember what remains unshakable so you can walk through endings without losing yourself, and step into rebirth knowing that nothing real in you can ever die.

Frequency: 528 Hz

⚠️ Please don’t listen to this transmission while driving, operating machinery, or multitasking. It’s meant to be received in stillness in a private, quiet space where you won’t be interrupted. 

A spoken transmission from the series At The Threshold by Astuti Martosudirdjo.

This transmission is for you who loves deeply, but no longer wishes to grip.
It’s for you who have stayed open-hearted, even when the relationship didn’t arrive the way you hoped.
It’s for the part of you who knows: love doesn’t ask for possession - it asks for truth to be lived.

You’ve walked with devotion.
You’ve waited, not from powerlessness, but from reverence.
You’ve chosen love again and again... and now you choose to be free within it.

This is not a transmission about ending love.
It’s a clearing for the false ideas, vows, and energetic contracts that confuse love with fear… and a reprogramming that returns you to sovereign love where your love is intact, even when the timeline is unknown.

Let this transmission dissolve the attachments that no longer serve, and return you to your nature: free, whole, and grounded in truth.

Come back to it as often as needed, especially when your heart aches and you long to love without losing yourself.

Frequency: 528 Hz

⚠️ Please don’t listen to this transmission while driving, operating machinery, or multitasking.
It’s meant to be received in stillness - in a private, quiet space where you won’t be interrupted.

A spoken transmission from the series At The Threshold by Astuti Martosudirdjo.

This transmission is for you who are ready to move beyond intellectual understanding and truly embody your emotional truth.

It’s for you who have carried emotions you didn’t know how to process - those who’ve felt overwhelmed, disconnected, or unsure how to stay present with your feelings.

This is not a space to rush through emotions or try to “fix” them.
It’s a space to be with what’s there, to soften into the truth of your feelings, and to feel safe in your body.

Let this transmission support you in moving from knowing to embodiment - to ground into your emotional power and presence.

Just listen when you’re ready.

 Frequency: 396 Hz

⚠️ Please don’t listen to this transmission while driving, operating machinery, or multitasking.
It’s meant to be received in stillness -  in a private, quiet space where you won’t be interrupted.

A spoken transmission from the series At The Threshold by Astuti Martosudirdjo.

This transmission is for you who are weary, hollow, or afraid ofcollapse.
It’s for you who are in burnout right now and need a way to sit with what feels unbearable.
It’s for you who wonder whether exhaustion means failure… or if it could mean something more sacred.

This is not a space to label you as “burned out” and leave it there.
It’s a space to distinguish between two fires:
- Burnout, the distortion that drains and collapses.

- Burning out, the purification that clears what is false so your original light can shine again.

Let this transmission remind you: exhaustion does not always mean the end. Sometimes it is the fire of becoming.

Come back to this space whenever you need to breathe, soften, and remember that the fire is not your enemy.

Frequency: 396 Hz

⚠️ Please don’t listen to this transmission while driving, operating machinery, or multitasking.
It’s meant to be received in stillness - in a private, quiet space where you won’t be interrupted.

Frequency: 432 Hz

⚠️ Please don’t listen to this transmission while driving, operating machinery, or multitasking.
It’s meant to be received in stillness - in a private, quiet space where you won’t be interrupted. Wearing headphones is highly recommended.

A spoken transmission from the series "At The Threshold" by Astuti Martosudirdjo

This transmission is for the ones who carry guilt not for what they did but for what they knew.

It’s for the ones who saw through the mask before anyone admitted it was a mask and said nothing.
For the ones who felt what was wrong before anyone said it out loud and stayed quiet to avoid conflict.
For the ones who are still carrying shame for being the first to feel the truth but stay silence to belong.

This is a space to come back into coherence where your knowing is not a burden, but a gift.
Where your body gets to soften… and your voice gets to return.

Just listen when you’re ready.

⚠️ Please don’t listen to this transmission while driving, operating machinery, or multitasking.
It’s meant to be received in stillness - in a private, quiet space where you won’t be interrupted.

A spoken transmission from the series "At The Threshold" by Astuti Martosudirdjo.

This is a healing space for you who have loved at your own expense, who believed that love meant giving up voice, safety, freedom, or breath.

It speaks to the deep, often hidden wound of sacrifice - a pattern that many of us inherited, repeated, and called “love.

The truth is love that costs your life… is not love. It is survival dressed in devotion.

This transmission invites you to name the cost. To reclaim your vitality.
To gently, bravely, remember that real love does not ask you to disappear.

Just listen when you're ready.

⚠️ Please don’t listen to this transmission while driving, operating machinery, or multitasking.

It is meant to be received in stillness - in a private, quiet space where you won’t be interrupted.

You are welcome to receive this audio transmission as often as you feel called to.

Frequency: 528 Hz.

You were told to stay calm.
To be good.
To keep the peace.

But under that stillness, something fiery and real lived and still lives.
This transmission is for you who silenced your anger for safety, survival, or belonging.

Let it meet you now - not to destroy, but to clarify.
You don’t have to use this fire today. Just let it be yours again.

Frequency used: 432 Hz frequency to ground your nervous system, creating a stable and safe space to meet anger without being overwhelmed by it.

Best used with eyes closed, body supported, having headphones on and presence to receive with ease.

⚠️ Please don’t listen to this transmission while driving, operating machinery, or multitasking.
It’s meant to be received in stillness - in a private, quiet space where you won’t be interrupted.

Welcome to “At The Threshold”.

This is a space for the ones who are ready to live differently, authentically.
Not through effort. Not through striving.
But through alignment with who they really are.

In this short welcome episode, Astuti invites you into At the Threshold - a series of transmissions designed to meet you in the quiet moments before your next shift.

No teaching. No fixing. Just words, voice, and energy that help you remember what’s already inside you.

If you’ve been trying to live more truthfully, more gently, more fully - you’re in the right place.

In this episode, I speak with Ali Reza Yawari — a Hazara refugee from Afghanistan currently living in transit country Indonesia — who shares his lived and witnessed experiences of deep and horrifying pain, resilience, forgiveness, deep compassion, healing and hope.

Together we explore the battles within and around the refugee journey living in a transit country for a very long period of time, and how, even in the darkest places, lovecontinues to rise. Love is still winning!

Trigger Warning: This episode includes discussions of war, forced displacement, trauma, and witnessing a suicide.Please listen with care and pause if you need to. Your well-being matters.

Timestamp:

00:00:00.   Opening

00:02:12.     Introduction of Ali Reza Yawari. 

00:07:41.     Ali’s life experiencing forceddisplacement as a Hazara man. Key highlights of what he experienced since in Indonesia as a transit country.

00:18:02.     What Refugees in Indonesia are allowed andnot allowed doing.

00:23:48.     What happens in other transit countries?

00:26:48.   Explanation about the reason why staying in Indonesia as a transit country is very long.

00:30:49.     How Ali survives the past ten years - his unseen battles and victories

 00:44:08.    Ali’s experience with local Indonesian people.

00:53:20.     The type of safe space that refugees needto be able to live in a transit country well.

00:57:45.     The implication of all these restrictionswithin the refugee’s youth population in Indonesia who never travelled abroad before nor interacting closely with other cultures before until they reached Indonesia. How the life in detention centers negatively impacted the youngpeople. 

01:08:43.     Why Ali cofounded Emplace Youth Initiativewith Muna. 

01:12:15.     Ali’s healing journey so far.

01:17:23.     Forgiveness as an act of liberation for Ali.

01:22:58.     The role of intuition in Ali’s life. Howthe lack of belonging and living being oppressed impacts Ali’s relationship with his intuition.

01:29:29.     What compassion means for Ali.

01:32:09.     Ali reads for us one of his poems: “I donot belong here”. 

01:34:32.   Ali’s hope for the future.  

01:38:02.     What you can take from this sharing. Ali’sinvitation to connect and how to get in touch with him.

01:40:56.     Closing.

To get in touch with Ali Reza Yawari:

Perjalanan Widy dalam episode ini (episode dua bahasa – Bahasa Indonesia dan Inggris) adalah kisah pencerahan spiritual yang lahir dari tragedi.

Kecelakaan bus di Kenya tanggal 31 Agustus 2011 ini merenggut nyawa teman baiknya, Elmer Pérez Requiz (Rest in Love, Elmer). Saat itu, Elmer duduk di kursi yang dia reserve untuk Widy. Karena terlambat masuk ke bus, Widy duduk di beberapa baris di depan Elmer- dan selamat, tanpa cedera yang serius. Tapi Elmer... meninggal.

Sejak kejadian itu, ia bersumpah untuk hidup autentik. Widy merasa hidupnya adalah kehidupan pinjaman dari Elmer.

Saat itulah Widy memulai proses transformasi (termasuk healing) yang terus berjalan sampai sekarang.

Di tengah prosesnya, ia menemukan bahwa ADHD telah membebaninya sejak kecil, menyebabkan burnout yang tak disadari. Ia juga menyembuhkan luka batin dengan ayahnya, membebaskan dirinya dari belenggu lama.

Proses yang membutuhkan waktu dan komitmen ini mengupas banyak lapisan jati  dirinya satu persatu, membuatnya semakin terhubung dengan jati diri sejatinya, termasuk bakat-bakatnya yang terpendam.

Saya yakin, Elmer tersenyum bahagia dari surga untuk Widy hari ini, merangkul peran kepemimipinannya dengan caranya yang autentik.

Timestamp:

00:00:00.    Pembukaan.

00:03:00.    Berkenalan dengan Widy Dinarti.

00:05:15.    Beberapa burnout dan trauma “Near DeathExperience (NDE)” di Kenya tanggal 31 Agustus 2011 yang men-trigger serangkaian proses transformasi sampai sekarang. Dampak trauma NDE dan cara Widy memprosessurvivor guilt.

00:18:00.    Perjalanan ke benua Afrika untuk membantuhealing process. Bagaimana trauma yang belum terselesaikan berdampak pada kehidupan Widy selama periode ini. Ketika tidak sengaja di-diagnosa Attention-deficit/hyperactivitydisorder (ADHD).

00:25:54.    Gejala ADHD di kehidupan Widy.

00:31:40.    Bagaimana healing and transformasi yangdi-trigger oleh NDE dan ADHD mengubah arah dan cara hidup Widy. Eksplorasi hubungan antara Widy dengan agama dan spiritualitas.

00:35:43.    Pelajaran utama yang Widy pelajari dari perjalanan penyembuhan dan transformasinya.

00:38:44.    Luka emosi dan batin paling menyakitkanyang disembuhkan Widy yang mengubah hidupnya menjadi lebih baik – Father wound.

00:53:00.    Bertemu dengan Pope Francis. Bagaimanapenyembuhan "Father wound" mengubah hubungan Widy dengan dirinya sendiri dan orang lain.

01:03:35.    Refleksi tentang perubahan dalam kehidupanWidy saat ini sejak mengalami NDE di 2011.

01:11:01.    Tiga kata yang menggambarkan pengalamanWidy menjalan transformasi di Uplift My Life Today bersama Astuti.

01:11:29.    Implikasi mendalam dalam kehidupan Astutisetelah menjadi pemandu dan katalisator bagi transformasi banyak orang selama bertahun-tahun. Perjalanan transformasi Astuti untuk mengikuti panggilan jiwanya untuk menjadi katalisator dan pemandu transformasi. Beberapa hal utama penting yang perlu kamu ketahui tentang transformasi.

01:33:22.    Penutup.

To get in touch with Widy Dinarti:

Jourdan Hussein is a poster child of an ambitious, successful go-getter.

With multiple degrees from world-renowned universities, work experiences in reputable international organizations, Jourdan had much to be proud of.

Yet, his heart longed for something else: peace, kindness and gentleness beyond success.

Our paths crossed in 2019. Then, Jourdan was amidst an intensive transformation period as he chose to face his fears to expand his leadership capacity. He wanted to find out what he felt he had to achieve so much but never feel fully loved and whole.

Growing up in a traditional Muslim family in Indonesia, the path he was expected to live was strictly laid out. There was no room for him to embrace his true self as an LGBTQIA+ member.

This episode is Jourdan's "Love Wins!" story about his journey in UNLEARNING the societal expectations to TRAILBLAZE a path for authenticity. He chooses to contribute to the world from a place of love.

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00:00:00.   Opening

00:03:07.    Introduction of Jourdan Hussein.

00:06:39    The context of Jourdan’s transformation since 2019 – what happened in his highly successful and fast-paced life and what he decided to face it consequently.

00:19:20    The various therapies that Jourdan did to heal. His reflection on why it is difficult to surrender despite the fact that he was raised in a culture and religion that has this concept.

00:26:30.   Why Jourdan had the needs to overachieve for decades.

00:27:38.   A few early signs of the existence of trailblazing energy.

00:30:45.   What happened after Jourdan did an intensive leadership retreat in Costa Rica (including ayahuasca ceremonies) in 2019, the type of support he acquiredover the next following few years and some key decisions he take to take care of himself.

00:35:02.   Resting as a part of trailblazing experience, its challenges and how Jourdan transform his relationship with resting.

00:47:06    Key life changing corner stones of Jourdan’s transformation, what he had to persevere and fight for, and what he did to get to where he is today: healthier, more fulfilled and successful.

00:53:20    How Jourdan creates and nurtures his relationships with his closest people (parents, siblings, etc) without compromising authenticity now.

00:56:45.   Relationship between love and authenticity and how they change the lives of Jourdan and his family collectively.

01:04:22.     Growth always comes with grief. What Jourdan learns about grief and grief processing.

01:14:26.     How the vision that Jourdan set for himself and his life in 2019 manifests today.

01:19:00.    The Wise Underdogs – what it is.

01:25:49.   3 words Jourdan chooses to describe his experience with The Uplift MyLife Today healing space (including Astuti in it).

01:29:23    The Hidden depth  (Jourdan’s question to Astuti) - A story about her transformation experience that she hasnot shared publicly to date but will need to be eventually.     

01:37:02.   Closing.

To get in touch with Jourdan Hussein:

Life is happening for you and not to you.

This can’t be more true for Angie Garcia's “Love Wins!” story, my newest podcast episode.

This episode is Angie’s homecoming story to her wholesome self, through living her life in many physical locations andorganizational and social cultures in many places in Europe and Africa over decades.

Angie has lived, worked, and integrated herself (and supported her family in doing the same) in many spaces and placesthat offer her contrasting experiences.

The life journey that she chooses brings about accumulated grief due to a sense of loss of self, relationships and dreams due to the experiences, as well as powerful and profound growth that essentially brings her home to her wholesome self.

Relocation is never just physical relocation.

This is what I personally experience, and Angie shares the same. Physical relocation (be it a place of living or a place to work) is the tip of the deeper consciousness transformation. When we realize this, we can get much more out of it.

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00:00:00   Opening and introduction.

00:05:27    Angie’s life (personal and professional) to date and upbringing in a snapshot – moving countries, become a mother, being made redundant and how thesechange the trajectory of her life.

00:10:58      How Angie’s personal/self-investment thatshe does through her personal and professional lives in facing contrasting life experiences impact and change her today. The most difficult challenges in her recent relocation from Kenya to the UK in 2022 and how she overcame them. WhatAngie learns about “PATIENCE”.

00:32:10    What Angie realizes she needs to heal when she moved back to the UK in 2022. What Angie managed to let go of when she lived in Kenya. What she gains as a consequent of processing her grief. Key lesson she gains about creation andcreative process.

00:43:55    The divine process of creation – What we need to do more of when we want a different experience or life.

00:55:53   What Angie healed the most and how it changed her and her life. Death and dying – how this impacts us.

01:03:06      The fears of change that Angie had as she went through her transformation within her closest relationships and what she learnt as she faced them.

01:27:00   Angie’s question to Astuti about her transformation: “Are you harvesting now?”

01:29:44    What Angie invests in today for her future.

01:34:27    Angie’s three words to describe Uplift My Life Today healing space.

01:38:42    Closing

To get in touch with Angie Garcia Forner:

This episode is conducted in both English and Bahasa Indonesia.

Kali ini, saya ingin mengundang semua (yang bisa berbahasa Indonesia!) untuk bergabung di percakapan saya (dalam dua Bahasa – Bahasa Indonesia dan Inggris) dengan Dian Handayani, seorang sex therapist and coach dalam episode podcast terbaru saya yang berjudul “Sacred liberation -unlocking authentic wealth through soulful sexuality” 💖

Dalam episode ini, saya dan Dian membahas tentang peran “Sexual Self” kita sebagai kunci dan pintu penting dalam mewujudkan kehidupan yang dilimpahi kekayaan hakiki dan otentik.

Simak keseruan diskusi kami dimana Dian berbagi pengalamannya dan menguak hal - hal yang sering kita anggap tabu dan penuh dengan kesalahpahaman tentang seksualitas, sensualitas dan “Sexual Self”. 

Kami membahas bagaimana proses pembentukan “SexualSelf” kita, apa saja yang bisa mempengaruhinya (termasuk juga trauma dari nenek moyang kita) dan dampak dari Kesehatan “Sexual Self” kita terhadap kualitas hidup kita.  Dian juga memberikan tips untuk memperbaiki hubungan kita dengan “Sexual Self” kita.

Salam hangat,

Astuti

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00:00:00.    Pembukaan.

00:01:12.    Berkenalan dengan Dian Handayani dan mengapatopik "Soulful Sexuality" ini penting untuk kita.

00:05:26.     Apa saja yang menjadi bagian profesiseorang sex therapist and coach dan bagaimana penitian karir Dian untuk menjadi seorang sex therapist and coach.

00:10:31.     Apa “Sexual Self” itu dan kesalahpahaman umumtentangnya.

00:15:15.     Dampak pengondisian masa kecil dan trauma yangdialamai oleh nenek moyang terhadap perwujudan «Sexual Self» kita.

00:34:18.     Cara menyikapi dan menindaki «rahasiakeluarga/nenek moyang» dengan sehat dan penuh rasa hormat supaya bisa membantu kita memperbaiki hubungan dengan «Sexual Self» kita.

00:38:56.     Pengaruh dari kualitas hubungan antarakita dan “Sexual Self” kita terhadap berbagai area kehidupan kita. Tanda yang menunjukkan bahwa hubungan kita dan “Sexual Self” kita itu sehat (atau tidak).

00:41:35.     Hubungan antara “Sexual Self” yang sehat dengan kreativitas.

00:51:55.     Dampak dari limiting beliefs tentangsensualitas dan seksualitas terhadap tubuh kita.

01:00:24.     Apakah budaya Indonesia itu kondusifterhadap kehidupan yang diisi dengan kenikmatan (pleasure) secara luas?

01:10:19.     Tiga Langkah untuk memperbaiki kualitashubungan kita dengan “Sexual Self” kita.

01:19:45.    Penutup.

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Illness is one of the most challenging growth opportunities.

We don’t always see illness as an opportunity to grow. Many see illness as a manifestation of punishment or mistakes.

Indeed, this brings up the deep pain of the “There is something gravely wrong with me” belief.

Illness is one of the most impactful triggers for the soul’s growth.

This is why I particularly love bringing this “Love Wins” story.

Adiyoga (Yoga) came to me for support immediately after he had brain surgery in 2021, which was done in an attempt to heal from Cushing’s Disease. This rare disease occurs when a pituitary tumour causes the body to make too much cortisol. In Yoga’s case, his body produced cortisol 14 times over the normal level. This has severe consequences for his health and well-being. He received this diagnosis in December 2020.

Yoga’s “Love Wins” story shares his journey from intense desperation, anger and fear into embodying his authentic self. It is a story of how love wins and continues to win in his life.

As a facilitator for Yoga’s healing and transformation journey, I learnt so much about deep love, the higher love we humans are made of, and the need to come home to our souls to reclaim our holistic well-being.

I feel honoured to be a part of Yoga’s journey and to have him come on the channel to speak about his healing journey, what he learnt throughout, including the deeper root causes of the disease, and how this has changed him and his life.

May his story touch your soul and inspire you to come back to your soul, too.

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00:01:17 Introduction.

00:05:08 The beginning of Yoga’s transformation journey that was triggered by a rare disease “Cushing Disease”. What Cushing disease is, its symptoms, its possible root causes, medical treatments that Yoga underwent to heal it and the meaning he gives for this difficult experience.

00:12:20 How Yoga’s transformation moves him from desperation into beauty and empowerment. Life-changing decisions Yoga had to take as part of his transformation.

00:25:17 The lessons and impact of asking for help and support in Yoga’s healing journey.

00:30:30 Why Yoga did not feel safe in his body and how this is connected to the illness he experienced.

00:40:08 How Yoga’s health is now and what he learnt from his healing journey.       

00:49:40 How this whole experience significantly changes what and how Yoga works now.

01:00:34 Astuti’s view on what happens to and for us when we go through such a profound transformation.

01:13:29 Why Yoga would title his autobiography Bloom – what it symbolises.

01:17:00 Three words Yoga described about Uplift My Life Today healing space.

01:18:59 Closing.

To get in touch with Adiyoga Anggoro:

This episode tells the true story of Soraya’s courage in choosing her authentic self, shedding her old self and identity, and rebuilding her life completely.

The journey started in 2019 when she experienced burnout for the second time.

This is when our paths crossed – she needed support. She was depleted (mentally, physically and emotionally), lost, confused, and scared then.

Soraya knew what she did not want to experience anymore but did not know what to do about her condition and situation. This was the beginning of our relationship, which started with intensive one-to-one sessions and, in recent years, through my self-paced online programs.

As we started working together, it was evident that Soraya needed to transition from a life driven by her mind to one led by her heart and grounded in her body. This was the life bridge she needed to cross.

Soraya decided to go for it even when she did not know precisely how the process would unfold. Her commitment to reclaiming her well-being was enough to get her started and stay committed to the process.

Following the first one, she discovered many unanticipated bridges within the main life bridge. Her journey had many twists, turns, detours, and blessings.

Moving country twice, before and after the pandemic, getting married and leaving corporate life to become an entrepreneur in a new country is part of her journey.

Growing up in Indonesian culture, she was raised by many rules, norms, and conditions that allowed little space for individuality and uniqueness.

Here she is, 5 years later, reflecting on her transformation in the “Love Wins!” conversation.

As much as this is Soraya’s personal story, it contains universal lessons and victorious moments that may inspire us.

Join Soraya and me in this uplifting conversation here.

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00:00:00    Opening and introduction

00:03:33     Soraya’s life in Germany today and the obstacles she had to overcome to get to where she is today.

00:24:05      Why and how Soraya embarked on a transformation journey in 2019 until today.

00:33:30     How Soraya’s decision to embody her authentic self impacts her as a business owner.

00:43:30     How Soraya’s healing journey impacts her relationship with her husband.

01:08:22    What could happen today if Soraya did not start her healing journey in 2019.

01:11:11      How the transformation that Soraya experiences changes the way she shows up for herself and in her roles as a business leader, a daughter, a sister, a wife, and a friend.

01:21:19    Soraya’s tips for you who want to embark on a healing and transformation journey.

01:22:30 Soraya’s 3 words to describe Uplift My Life Today healing space.

01:23:52 Closing

To get in touch with Soraya:

Content warnings:

All the views expressed here are Jyoti Sharma's personal experiences.

The discussion entails some raw and emotional details about domestic violence.

It takes courage to step up to what one desires – to claim it, own it, and be at peace with it, even when what brings you joy may trigger others close to you.

This latest episode of the Honest Hour is about Eli's decision to choose joy by transitioning from being a female to a male. For him, the conscious choice to transition was not about trading genders but rather about feeling more like himself and choosing happiness and joy.

The human spirit is certainly not one to be underestimated.

Enjoy this episode, let this inspire you and please share it with others.

Let's all remind ourselves that humans are beautiful and powerful beings.

With love,

Astuti and Julie

#upliftmylifetoday #intentionallife  #transformation   #transgender #joy #subconsciousmindreprogramming #podcast

Let me know what you think about this episode via astuti@upliftmylife.today

Caring for the dying is often underestimated – we underestimate how much it takes from us as we choose to do it.

I know because when I did it, I didn’t understand the magnitude of this process for me. The thing is, when the one that we care for passes away, we continue living without them. This episode is the 3rd part of the Death and Dying series, and it brings up various topics that we all can consider when we choose to care for others who are dying.

Like in birth and life, death also has its processes.

The dying process happens on all levels – emotionally, mentally, physically and spiritually.

I intend for this conversation to offer us an understanding that death is just like birth and life – it has many processes, and each process has stages. It can also help to be aware of the process we go through as we are about to start our death journey and when we support other people going through it (and this will be covered in the 3rd episode of the Death and Dying series that will be coming to you shortly).

For many years, I’ve been asking myself why there are so many rituals, publications, and workshops about birth and life but not necessarily about death.

Are we scared thinking about it? Are we scared of accepting that we all will die? What are we fearful of?

Join my discussion with Rachelle Fuerer about Death and Dying in this episode (the 1st out of 3).

We’re discussing natural death, what it means, what It can look like, why it is important to be prepared for it and how to do so.

Rachelle Fuerer is an international counsellor, therapist and coach.

She trained as a bereavement counsellor at a private hospice in Roodepoort, Johannesburg, and completed Palliative Care support training in Switzerland.

The content of this episode is thought-provoking and just touching the surface of this vast topic.

My wish is that we start the journey to understand death so we can live more fully.

Enjoy, share your thoughts with me, and share this episode with others too.

With love,
Astuti

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00:00      Opening

04:15       Medically, when do we start to die? Current stigma about death.

24:15       What natural death means and what external factors that disturb this.

38:20       Why it is important to prepare for the dying process proactively and how to do it constructively, especially for those we leave behind.

01:08:20  Closing

Let me know what you think about this episode via astuti@upliftmylife.today

Content warnings:

All the views expressed here are Adam's personal experiences.

The discussion entails some raw and emotional details about suicidal ideation and depression.

Please do not use psychedelics without professional assistance from a psychedelically trained therapist.

Adam, now 41 years old, lives in Zurich, Switzerland. He was born in Fitchburg, Massachusetts and graduated from the University of Massachusetts - Amherst with BA in History and Philosophy. Since then, he's worked in sales, marketing, education and tax.

This conversation reflects his inner and outer journeys in manifesting a thriving life beyond surviving.

This sharing is intended to serve as an inspiration delivered by someone who has risen well above the sufferings. Therefore, it is held honestly and lovingly.

If this story triggers you, pause it and take a few sets of deep breathing, go for a walk, speak to someone you trust. You can also get professional help to ensure you are fully back in your body again. Only then you should proceed with listening.

Also, consider listening to this with someone you trust and feel comfortable with so you are not alone.

With love,

Are you (unconsciously) scared of success and money?

I was, and this contributed to the burnout I experienced at the end of 2008.

No, I didn’t expect to find this fear within, yet it was there, and it played out in many different aspects of my life.

Content warnings:

All the views expressed here are Anni’s personal experiences.

The discussion entails some raw and emotional details about abuse and rape.

This is a real-life reflection of how Anni, now a grandmother of 6, a mother of 3 and an Irish American artist and teacher, left a cult and freed herself from a 20-year dysfunctional relationship to a narcissistic husband to rebuild her life from the ground up.

This conversation reflects her inner and outer journeys in manifesting a thriving life beyond surviving.

This sharing is intended to serve as an inspiration delivered by someone who has risen well above the sufferings. Therefore, it is held honestly and lovingly.

If this story triggers you, pause it and take a few sets of deep breathing, go for a walk, speak to someone you trust. Or get professional help to ensure you are fully back in your body again. Only then you should proceed with listening.

Also, consider listening to this with someone you trust and feel comfortable with so you are not alone.

If you are a victim of domestic violence in Switzerland, you can get help here https://www.opferhilfe-schweiz.ch/en/i-am-victim/domestic-violence/

For other locations please refer to your local domestic violence support services.

With love,